Divergent Chaos

Your profile is filled with faces,
Full of words yet empty phrases.
It’s getting too crowded here.
Thier intentions are perfectly clear.

Love transmitted in binary,
Reception has always been choppy.
Love less than extraordinary,
Always fails to make you happy.

Expectation rises from the moment,
Flowing, drifting with the current.
Floating in a sea of thoughts,
Dwelling in what your emotions brought.

An inbox full of messages,
Blogs in a series of pages.
All pertains to what i feel,
All kept hidden but are real.

I shall wait until we connect,
Don’t assume, don’t expect.
I may not be who you want,
You may not be who i want.

Let’s end this game of words,
Cause i feel you’re getting bored.
Our topics has ceased to interest you,
You’re yearning for something new.

I’m tired of your digital smile,
I want to see your real profile.
I want to know who you really are,
And not just your fake avatar.

Love in Binary,
Connecting blindly.
Everything is temporary,
Except this feeling of anxiety.

Your words affect me deeply,
Every reply makes me happy.
I long to see the day we meet,
As much as your free time would fit.

I wanted us to talk personally,
I need to know what you think about me.
Reject me or take me as i am,
I know i’m not the same as them.

I have done the unthinkable,
Something that was undesirable.
Though i’m fully aware of the danger,
I’ve fallen in love with a stranger.

For countless days and nights,
I wished i could behold your sight.
I savor the thought of being beside you,
Doing all the exciting things we could do.

I only know of your handle,
and nothing more when you became idle.
Only few words got through,
Short replies for questions i had for you.

I tried to express myself to you,
I wanted to say that i need you.
Nothing but an empty profile,
Nothing but a deleted file.

Everything will cease to exist,
Time will someday end.
Eternity is a non-existant bliss,
Designed to allude you from the annihilation at hand.

All will burn to ashes and souls will rust,
Corrupted and damned by deceit.
The world will crumble to dust,
As the abysmal darkness consumes it.

Life will lose its meaning,
Existence is but a moment quickly fleeting.
Abhorred by an unwelcomed ending,
Nothing will be left standing.

All that was created will be no more,
As it was in the beginning so it shall be in the end.
This is existence’s final encore,
Opportunity will no longer extend.

Vague as it may seem,
Intangible like a dream,
The reason for life has always been,
the acknowledgement of sin.

Take Pride in your soul,
This is what makes you truly whole.
Nothing is sweeter than vanity,
Until it becomes redolent insanity.

Quench your thirst for Lust,
For this has always been a must.
Let your instincts take over,
Dont let your urge become sober.

May Gluttony satisfy you,
This is simply a must to do.
Feed your unending hunger,
Become an unsatiable consumer.

Envy is your friend,
It gives you reasons to rend.
As it invites true competition,
It drives away disillusion.

Sloth is not to be ignored,
It rules when you get bored.
don’t take action if it’s not required,
Apathy could give you a reward.

Greed is an instinct,
It shows that everyone is distinct.
Greed teaches you how to survive,
In a world where scarcity thrives.

Wrath is hate and hate is wrath.
Destruction is a wish that it can grant.
Fill your heart with spite,
Let Wrath give you unsurpassed might.

Sin is instinctively natural,
It gives hope to a world that became brutal.
We Sin because God gave us the power to choose,
We sin because we have a soul to loose.

Our existence is a sin,
As it had always been.
Indulge yourself to what is earthly,
Sin is a visceral ecstasy.

Today and not today
Maybe tomorrow if it’s okay.
I’m already tired
from doing what’s required.

My heart is  now full of spite,
Cause things didn’t turned out right.
There was a lot of mistakes made,
None of them will soon fade.

Today and not today,
Come tomorrow, come what may.
Yesterday is just a heartbeat away,
and the past is always here to stay.

A soul bound to hatred,
Destined to be ill-fated.
Yet his heart struggles on,
Though his world was long gone.

His head, filled with confusion,
Cascading memories of delusion.
He became the antithesis of the former self,
Ever tired and weary but never cried for help.

Drunk with thoughts of happiness,
Yet he is drowning in loneliness.
A young and verdant soul,
Dancing on the edge of a deep hole.

Seeking solace in death,
All was lost on a single bet.
Nothing to gain,  nothing to lose
Break from the bonds of truth, a new lie to chose.

The angel of chaos has risen,
To rewrite what was not written.
To Undo what was not done,
To retrieve what had been long gone.

The day turns into night,
Everything fades in the dimming light,
The sun hides away its face,
as the moon takes its place.

Clouds covers the wide sky,
hiding the stars perched up high.
Hoping for a peek of starlight,
Staring at the moon shining bright.

Summer wind blows,
hot and humid air flows.
I miss you in this warm night,
All i want to do is hold you tight.

I dreafully wish for rain,
To bring Relief for this heat’s disdain.
Quench the burning thirst of summer,
This will be a night to remember.

It was my fault,
That i loved you more than i should.
It was my fault,
To give you more than i could.

It was my mistake,
But i’ll let this go on forever.
Though there are consequences i need to
take,
I absolutely wanted us to be together.

I need you to be here by my side,
I want to see you blooming with pride.
Though all the roses have died,
This love will always survive.

The flowers once bloomed then faded,
Leaving their thorns embedded.
They left my heart bewildered and jaded,
For all this time, i have just waited.

Let this misery go on,
Let this solitude continue.
A love deserted and forlorn,
Constantly waits for you.

My breath is getting shorter,
As i approach you there.
Thoughts focused on what i will say
Saying to my self that this is the day.

Today i’m gonna tell you how i feel
Today, my secrets i will reveal.
Things that i have kept hidden,
Emotions that were forbidden.

I will state the content of my heart,
Remove the things that kept us apart.
I will sit next to you,
and talk about what you love to do.

I’m going to gather all my courage,
I’m going to send this message.
I’ll let you know that i love you,
And ask if you could love me too.

I’ll wait for your reply,
I’ll wait till time pass me by.
I’m gonna sit here by your side,
Regardless of the answer you would have implied.

I know i can never deny,
That what i feel for you is true.
I just know i have to try,
To be at this moment there with you.

I need to show, i need to express
All the love that my heart felt.
I’ve said it now, nothing more to confess
Understand that this love is my greatest wealth.

I perfectly love you at this moment.
I loved you yesterday, so will i tomorrow.
I’ve love you from past to present,
With all the moments i borrow.

This feeling that i can’t surmise,
Grows impatient and strong,
Eternally aware of how time flies.
Looking for the heart where it belong.

Mindlessly i walk on the corridors of my soul,
Searching for you, seeking you.
I have long wished again to be whole,
I have long waited for my dream to come true.