Divergent Chaos

I know i shall never forget,
An urge even stronger than death.
A destiny, fate has come to set,
A sacrifice i dare not regret.

And I know i shall never see,
The days that she’ll share with me.
For life is just an insane delusion,
Happiness is just a bittersweet temptation.

The world still goes spinning,
But everything has it’s ending.
Someday, somehow, we will all fade,
In time,with chance, everything will be unmade.

Another unsustainable discontent,
Smothers me at this very moment.
Wanting something that is not mine,
Hopeless thoughts that goes out of line.

I breathe deep and i breathe hard,
I surrender and lay down my guard.
There’s nothing more for me to lose,
Just another futile excuse.

I’m now willing to give up,
I’m now willing to stop.
I’m now ready to break my world,
Preparation to face the cold.