Divergent Chaos

(Based from the anime/novel/manga Ef - Tales of Memories, this is Chihiro.)
I fell in love with the story, it made me drunk with feelings and thoughts of somewhat mixed anxiety and happiness.

Repeating empty days passed me by,
Since four years when my time stopped.
Always staring at a hazy distant sky,
Moments remembered that are not enough.

Chains of 12 years constantly binds me
To who i was and to my fixed past
I can only grasp 13 hours of memory
As they fade and never will last.

Memories i don’t want to forget,
Written in words for me to recollect.
This is as best as it can get,
An existence that i long to reject.

Someone who didn’t knew loneliness,
Should never connect with anyone.
The pain of being alone is boundless,
Not knowing anyone is better than

losing someone.

Like a castle of sand built on a

morning,
Looking perfect and beautiful.
Blown away by the wind in the evening,
Knowing that is absolutely painful.

I don’t want to be erased from anyone’s

heart,
The fear of being forgotten grips me.
Thoughts in paper, torn apart.
All memories of happiness will soon

leave me.

A sad existence to realize,
A life that i won’t remember.
Stucked in my own time as everyone

else’s flies,
I only hope my true wish never waver.

Fading memories erased from my mind,
But my heart remember the feelings.
Not any trace of the moment to find,
All that i can do is to keep believing.

Don’t say goodbye,
Even before we meet.
It’s ok to wait and try,
If our fate allows it.

Pretend that we know each other,
Save a space for me in your life.
It’s not really much of a bother,
There is no pressure or hype.

Act like you understand me,
I promise that I’ll do the same.
Assume that we are meant to be,
Let’s play this overrated game.

Talk to me in your dreams,
Imagine that I’m beside you.
Though awkward it would seem,
Open your heart and be true.

Whomever you maybe,
You’ll always have my heart.
I’ll be there to help you see,
What love needs to impart.

Pretend that i love you,
Pretend that you love me.
The feelings that we accrue,
Will waver what we need to be.

Let’s wait for our future,
Endless days of happiness.
We only have a today to endure,
Few more moments of numbness.

You shall never disappear,
From my mind and from my heart.
You shall forever be here,
We will never again part.

Always be by my side,
Forever until end of time.
Eternity wouldn’t mind,
That you become mine.

You’ll never again stand alone,
Let me hold your hand tightly
And I’ll take you home.
Live this life as you want it to be.

I want you to believe in me.
I need you to trust me.
The truth is here for you to see,
You have the right to be free.

Say goodbye to your tears,
You won’t need them anymore.
Let go of all your fears,
Discard the sadness that you wore.

Grasp tomorrow,
Let go of yesterday.
Leave your sorrow,
Let us face a new day.

So never disappear,
I need you to be here.
Please always be near,
My love so dear.