Divergent Chaos

Drifting in the vast space,
We seek to find our place.
Countless stars lights our path,
As we journey to eternity’s aftermath.

A universe, so wide yet almost empty,
Fleeting time against the long eternity.
Life on a speck of dust,
To retain existence is a must.

We traverse constellations,
With galaxies as companions.
Looking beyond the emptiness,
Seeing through the darkness.

We live on an ocean of stars,
Where materiality is scarce.
Where you sought you purpose,
To do what you are suppose.

A love as wide as the universe,
That follows the planet’s course,
Yet it can’t contain what i feel.
If only time could stand still.

Let our heart’s collide,
and i’ll let you decide,
What ever you choose,
I’ll still have a heart to lose.

Even if this life isn’t enough,
My soul will go on and never stop.
I’ll search every galaxy,
on this endless cosmic sea.

Countless wishes awaits to be granted,
as all the stars fall undaunted.
Every wish will contain my love,
and everything that i want you to have.

At the edge of hope,
It becomes harder to cope.
Everything weighs heavier,
More difficult to get sober.

What is near felt distant,
Crowded places feels vacant.
The world turns in slow motion,
Gives time for comtemplation.

Lost the reason to exist,
Lost the will to resist.
Days fades to night,
Beauty blurred from sight.

The sun grows dim and cold,
Darkness has an eternity to hold.
The moon does even hide in shadows,
No light can it borrow.

Uncertainty grows thick,
Suffocating life’s wick.
What was once perfect,
Is now forced to reject.

The line that divided sanity and insanity,
Sunked in waters of distressed impartiality.
Distinction remained unresolved,
No boundary could ever again evolve.

At the edge of hope,
There’s no reason to mope.
At the verge of apathy,
There’s only melancholy.

The darkness that looms over the horizon,
Constantly changing approach and direction.
Unpredictable, clouding sight and vision.
Inconsistent with the passing of seasons.

While the sun shines on the zenith,
Life continues to evolve and change.
Meaning fluctuates in depth and range,
Surpassed but still at the verge of limit.

Changes happen everyday,
Heart’s condescends and breaks.
Everyone has risks to take,
Waiting indefinitely, come what may.

As with the passing of time,
Nothing ever stays permanent.
There’s no reason to be complacent,
When the world acts like anything but sublime.

Changes strengthens or weakens trust,
Breaks hopes, subdues courage.
Induces love, induces rage,
Can also turn everything else to dust.

Chaos is change,change is chaos.
Intertwined, still undefined
All thoughts within your mind,
You’ll see every effect and cause.

You broke my wings,
I can no longer soar.
A life held by a string,
My paper heart you tore.

I have trusted you.
With my life, i risked it all,
Just for you,
But all you did was let me fall.

You betrayed what i once held sacred,
defiled what i thought was perfect.
A love you left deserted,
As if just another worthless object.

You stated your reasons,
But all i heard were lies.
You only led me on,
It all came as a surprise.

To betray is to break me,
A promise trapped in irony.
I could not see what you see,
because i loved you blindly.

There’s something i can’t undo,
In my thoughts i have already killed you.
I’m suffocating you with your own lies,
I’ll just have to wait until this love dies.

Succumb in my anger and wrath,
Dont walk through an ardor path.
Instead, tread the path of broken glass.
Feel what you made me feel at last.

I have no choice but to hate,
This is my fate you tried to create.
This was your choice, not mine.
If this is what you want, then fine.

In my hate you shall burn,
And no one shall mourn.
There’s no way out of this hell,
You have no soul to sell.

I will not deny,
That what I feel is true.
No words, not even a sigh,
Can define what I feel for you.

Please do not discern,
I just want this emotion to show.
I don’t expect anything in return,
And all I want is for you to know.

You may not want me,
You may not need me.
I just hope that you see,
What you meant to me.

Please bear with my actions
And I apologize for the bother.
I just have these certain reasons,
That I certainly need to render.

I can’t ignore what I feel,
And I’m clueless on how you feel..
I only need to follow what you will,
Because I can’t do anything, still.

Somehow, just somehow,
I want you to understand.
That I’ll still feel this way tomorrow,
Consequences of the things I do still stand.

Lingering in your veins,
Flowing and feeding your pain.
Red, the color of blood,
reminiscing the agony you had.

Crimson liquid, source of life,
Mercilessly shed in strife.
Warm and thick,
yet the ground continues to lick.

Blood from your heart,
Pierced through your rampart.
Dried in your armor,
but still shows your valor.

Your blood-drenched sword,
Defends the meaning of her words.
With a shield on the other hand,
You cause the barricade to withstand.

Blood never tasted this sweet,
but it clings to Death’s teeth.
giving him an unsightly grin,
despised, much to your chagrin.

Burning through obscurity,
Defying even gravity.
Consuming every drop of mercy,
My hatred defines me.

Becoming my greatest sin,
Death becomes my first of kin.
Purge my soul on Hell’s fire,
Deny me all even to respire.

Let me shear your fate’s thread,
Fear, even the demons will dread.
I offer to cease your existence,
Be done with your presence.

Hate is such a strong word
But for the sake of my world,
Strong is what i need to be,
Thanks for this feeling you gave me.

This is now the end of life,
To die by the edge of a knife.
As it was stabbed in my chest,
I gave my life away at your behest.

You took no pity in killing me,
Didn’t even give a shred of mercy.
You purposely caused my demise,
slowly poisoning me with lies.

I saw your happiness in my agony,
Your joy as cold steel sank into me.
I saw your life in my death,
I’ve seen despair in my last breath.

The words on the headstone on my grave,
also in my soul are engraved.
The rose you threw have now turned into dust,
Memories of a long forgotten past.

Accompanied by worms and decay,
Not seeing the light of day
I lie here on this casket’s darkness
Once who has life is now lifeless.

Soon, the ground will claim me,
Be one with the earth, as it should be.
Erased individuality,
End to instrumentality.

I am now dead,
With lot of words left unsaid.
Regrets doesn’t mean anything anymore,
Nothing else, nothing more.

Someday you’ll share the same fate,
Just wait for the exact time and date.
Death is a journey to oblivion,
I will be there at your execution.

If we are not meant to be,
then these dreams are broken as i see.
I’ll be alone in my solitary hell,
no one else, but me who’ll dwell.

I’ll ask the Lord for my soul to take,
I’ll wait till all your promises break.
There’ll be no more reason for life’s grandeur,
There’s only time for me to endure.

I’ll ask you now to leave me alone,
For all my sins, i will atone.
Say your long goodbyes,
State all your lies.
Then i’ll be out of your sight,
If you deemed your actions were right.

(this is somehow unfinished. ^_^. .someday..)