Divergent Chaos

Teary Eyed

Your tears were about to fall,
when you accidentally remembered
the past you refused to recall.
Memories you thought were deffered.

Moments that you tried to forget,
Forces their way back into remembrance.
Decisions you’ll always regret
That you wished to be erased in this instance.

Remember when you cried yourself to sleep
Remember when you felt a pain so deep.
Lost something you thought you’ll forever keep.
Dont hold back the tears, just let them drip.

Can’t do anything else but to accept
That you just have not met
The one who’ll love you deeper than any depth
True love has not shown itself yet.

Stand by your hope.
Dont let down your guard.
You can always try to cope,
Even though life is that hard.

Open your heart,
Though it’s broken
Create a brand new start,
Keep your mind open.

There are lessons to be learned from the past
There are hatred and regrets you need to cast
Hold on to the beauty of life till the vey last
and the universe will still be vast.

Dont hold back your tears,
All your pain will someday disappear
When the right love comes near
It will wipe away all your fears.

As I traverse this fragment of time,
I grow more aware of my insignificance
In this life where most things are sublime,
I endure with my utmost defiance.

To defy life, to defy fate
The reason to be me.
Playing a game that ends on a stale mate,
Gambling with my soul just to be free.

The pieces of reason,
are scattered on the floor
Like leaves on a rainy season,
They are washed away as water pours.

I cant have all that i want
I cant change what was done
A past that constanly haunts
Reminisced memories supposedly gone.

The air is thick around here
Suffocating the life out of me
Blindly engrossed in fear
Nothing but darkness to see

If this love was born in flames
then I should let it burn
Burn this world as if they’re the same
And then I can have our turn.

If this is meant to end,
let it shine as brightly as we can
If this heart you can’t mend,
Might as well burn it then,

If i have the reason to believe
That everything is worth something
Then i would gladly live
And continue with this feeling.

I realized that we’re worlds apart,
but i know you’ll always have my heart.
I knew i loved you from the start,
With everything my heart could impart.

There’s so much my heart wants to convey.
Words that my soul is eager to say.
Thoughts that vanity tries to obscure,
Untainted and absolutely pure.

I’ve made you the center of this life,
The only one whose tears i would wipe.
You’re the perfect love i’ve dreamed about,
Honest and without a trace of doubt.

Always mesmerized  by your smile,
Lived the rest of my life in that while.
Heaven in constant repetition,
Trapped in your addictive perfection.

Smile for me,please show me your soul,
I need you now to make my life whole.
Awaken this heart from it’s sleep
Pull the knife that is buried deep.

Please heal all my wounds that you can see,
Cure the disease of my agony
Ease the pain that fate had burdened me
Set my tired soul absolutely free.

Break all the chains that hold and binds me
Cut the rope on my neck that chokes me
I’ll love you for whoever you’ll be
and like how fate wanted it to be.

Hold me up when both my legs gets weak,
Give me the warmth that my body seek.
you’re the one who could give what i need
Your love’s the only thing my voice heeds.

I realized that we’re worlds apart,
but i know you’ll always have my heart.
I knew i loved you from the start,
With everything my heart could impart.

There’s so much my heart wants to convey.
Words that my soul is eager to say.
Thoughts that vanity tries to obscure,
Untainted and absolutely pure.

I’ve made you the center of this life,
The only one whose tears i would wipe.
You’re the perfect love i’ve dreamed about,
Honest and without a trace of doubt.

Always mesmerized  by your smile,
Lived the rest of my life in that while.
Heaven in constant repetition,
Trapped in your addictive perfection.

Smile for me,please show me your soul,
I need you now to make my life whole.
Awaken this heart from it’s sleep
Pull the knife that is buried deep.

Please heal all my wounds that you can see,
Cure the disease of my agony
Ease the pain that fate had burdened me
Set my tired soul absolutely free.

Break all the chains that hold and binds me
Cut the rope on my neck that chokes me
I’ll love you for whoever you’ll be
and like how fate wanted it to be.

Hold me up when both my legs gets weak,
Give me the warmth that my body seek.
you’re the one who could give what i need
Your love’s the only thing my voice heeds.

The gravity of love
this time, pulls me harder
Draining all the i hope i have
Distancing my dreams further

I now unable to distinguish
between my pride and my promise
The flame i sought to extinguish
just wont die and denies me bliss.

I’m lying on the ground,
Back against the floor
Thoughts running without sound,
heart’s tired but still craves for more.

Eyes focused on the sky
Staring blankly at clouds
Time just wont cease to pass by
The future hides behind its shroud.

The gravity of love pulls harder
Unable to get up and walk away,
Felt like the world is on my shoulder
The weight causes my mind to stray.

I cant shake off
this sinking feeling
like a stubborn cough
that blocks my breathing.

I know i am aware
but i just cant help it
claimed by despair
Blinded by self deceit.

The intense gravity of love
surmounted the gravity of my hate
Drained me of all the will that i have,
forcing me to defy even fate.

Amen.

I can only give you what i have,
Nothing more, nothing less.
All i have is this sacred love,
I offer my life at your behest.

Hurt me and Watch me bleed
See the red blood gush out
This is something that i need
But i need you more without doubt

Our distance makes me numb,
I cant feel you nor your heart
Another phase for me to succumb
An emptiness that wont depart.

All i can do is befriend silence
At least he keeps me company
but i still thirst for your presence
Something that fate could not give me

I constantly hunger for your affection
Ulcer of solitude eats me from the inside
I endure this disease of separation
because of the complications that i cant hide.

Cure me or kill me,
Deceive me or make me believe
Either way i will be free,
Die or live.

Love is a disease with no cure
that consumes your heart and mind
can even taint a soul that was once pure
That wraps your life in a fatal bind.

Yet, it is what i seek
What i want and what i need
Though the chances are low and bleak
Even if God forbids..

You’re the smile on my lips
Tears that constantly drips
The hands that chokes my neck
That left me in this wreck.

A bullet through my heart
The love that tears me apart
A pain that insist to remain
Becoming a tumor in my brain

You’re the knife on my back,
The spikes on my track.
You’re the cancer in my soul,
The disease the makes me whole.

A blind spot in my sight
Nightmares in my nights
The laughter in my sorrow,
Hanging-rope that i borrow.

You’re the gun to my head
Bullets are words that you said
Like heroin to an addict,
You’re the reason i am frantic.

In my masochistic thoughts,
you’re the cyanide i bought.
The iron maiden that binds me
as the spikes pass through my body.

You’re the cherry on my sundae,
The visitor who refuses to stay.
I wanted to come out and play
but you made my sky turn gray.

You’ve become what i wanted you to be
You’ve become someone i needed to see
But only through my eyes and my mind
is Where this insanity you can find.