Divergent Chaos

As the moon cast its shadow
Over the depths of my sorrow,
Darkness fills the emptiness
devouring pride and sadness.

My heart is growing bitter and cold,
With each passing hour apathy unfolds.
Building unsurmounted hatred,
Leading to a path, i will alone tread.

A soul bound in darkness,
Devoid of light but not faithless.
Seeking absolute redemption,
An escape from human infraction.

When the weight of the world subsides,
The lies will cease to reside.
Every soul will be free
From the chains of their vanity.

I will wait for you right here,
Sitting in the corner of my fears.
Playing with anonymous shadows,
Waiting for another hopeful tomorrow.

Lights flicker over the horizon,
as i watch the passing of each season.
The sun sets and rises, yet i still wait,
For you to be led to me by fate.

For now, I will just stare at the stars
Just to kill these fleeting hours.
Empty moments of existence,
Because i am without your presence.

I will wait here under the moon and the sky,
Wait here till the last day passes me by.
Until eternity comes to an end,
Hope would be my last friend.

I apologize for being too naive,
Love’s the only best thing i could give.
Your love is the only thing i need,
My life would be my sole bid.

For every new beginning,
comes an absolute ending
As the leaves of Autumn falls,
will again grow as Spring calls.

Another tomorrow will arrive
after today has come to subside.
A new start awaits the lonely heart,
to find again its missing parts.

Every yesterday will continue to pass,
Leaving memories that may or may not last.
The wounds of the past will someday heal
But the scars will always remind you how pain feels.

A new tomorrow will arise,
From the ashes of demise.
A new day will dawn,
as the rising sun yawns.

All light and hope is restored,
The beauty of life can now be adored.
Walk under the bright sun,
Do whatever needs to be done.

With one mistake,
Friendships can end.
With one mistake,
Trust can break and bend.

With one mistake,
Lives can be destroyed,
With one mistake,
Warmth disappears into the void.

With one mistake,
Love is lost,
With one mistake,
no payment can subdue its cost.

With one mistake,
Hope could be deffered,
With one mistake,
Wrath could be incurred.

With one mistake,
Rejection followed,
With one mistake,
Perfection becomes flawed.

With one mistake,
Love turns to hate,
With one mistake,
all could be lost..even faith.

With one mistake,
Everything turned bitter.
With one mistake,
Revenge just became sweeter.

WIth one mistake,
The distance between us grew.
With one mistake,
I have lost you.

If only i could attempt to forget,
The past full of dire regrets,
Then i would have lived in peace,
I could have dwell in perfect bliss.

If only i could erase
The moments of your embrace
and the warmth of your kiss,
Then it wouldn’t have to end like this.

The threads of fate that once bound us,
Was severed by the shears of distrust.
The connection had long been broken,
Since our last words were spoken.

Your memories will forever haunt me,
Vivid thoughts that once made me happy,
Now have became endless nightmares,
The weight of emptiness only for me to bear.

I held that love once as sacred,
But your actions turned it into hatred.
I tried my best not to remember
But my hopes will ever shatter.

I may forget your face and your name,
but the feelings will stay the same.
I will discern everything that you did,
and my heart shall continue to bleed.

If only fate wasn’t this cruel,
Then i wouldn’t need to break the rules.
I would have followed my intended path,
and not feel this unsightly wrath.

For now, i will stay like this,
Until i find my reason to exist.
Once again i leave my life to my worst enemy..
and that is.."Destiny"..

"Believe in anything you want, as long as it makes you happy."

I’ll face this life as i would death.
Living each fragile day not in regret.
Enduring the trials brought by fate,
to choose from Heaven or Hell’s gate.

Live each moment on the hope of deliverance,
Live each minute as is it was the last chance.
To exist with my unswallowed pride,
I’ll lead this destiny as i decide.

A heart painfully scathed,
By the burns that you’ve made.
An empty soul that constantly suffers,
Caused by love’s undying embers.

I sought not a life of perfection,
rather than just living in your recession,
I sought not your beauty,
It’s enough for me to see just your purity.

I’m now killing my addiction,
A cloud that blurs my vision.
Awakening to a dire revelation,
That you are just an illusion.

I have to depart from this fantasy,
I have to put an end to this insanity.
You we’re a drug that crossed my veins,
You we’re the anesthetic that hides my pain.

I need to face a certain reality,
A reality where i dont have you near me.
Without your words, without your thoughts,
without your smile is what i sought.

I must withdraw from this addiction,
I must stop this dependent sensation.
A poison to my life you have injected,
Causing my heart to become infected.

An end to this temporary euphoria,
An end to this excised nostalgia.
I must feel the pain of acceptance,
for me to know that if i still have a chance.

Release me from this immoral high,
Let me feel the pain that you always deny.
Let me feel life at the verge of death,
Show me the real world as i gasp for my breath.

You are my addiction,
A love without discretion.
A hope lost in confusion,
Waiting for its execution.

I’m growing tired and weary,
Heart’s falling into obscurity.
Emotions flailing in melancholy,
as it succumbs to atrophy.

All messages were sent,
but no true reply was present.
just words ,just empty words
cutting through me like sharp swords.

I so long wanted to disconnect,
before you can even reject.
I wanted to save my pride,
from a love that can’t be denied.

This line goes only one-way,
perpetually waiting for a reply in dismay.
I need now to give a disconnection notice,
Before things gets worst that it is.

I’m now emotionally broke and worthless,
because of all my payments paid in excess.
I cant now afford this fate’s service,
thinking it doesn’t probably exist.

Thoughts flutter in boundless anxiety,
I need to know how everything else should be.
is it enough to give a notice of disconnection,
just because i cant stand this asphyxiation?

I’m just a comment on your picture,
and a testimonial on your profile.
You only acknowledged me at liesure,
Testaments of love on a text file.

I’m insignificant on your profile views,
Countless visits yet i still want to see more
Reading comments, deciphering clues
Killing time and looking for an open door.

I try to compete for your attention,
Constantly fighting for your affection,
Waiting for your reaction,
Dying in the heat of anticipation.

Stay with me under the moonlit sky
Let’s watch as falling stars pass by
Accompany me throughout the night
As we wonder at this beautiful sight.

Stay with me beneath this starry blanket
And make this night my best night yet.
See how the moon smiles at us with her glow
Much like the beauty that you now show.

Tell me your dreams,tell me your desires,
Tell me what lights up your life’s fire.
Express your heart out to me,
Release your mind, set it free.

Your eyes are slowly watering,
The sight of it is saddening.
Allow me to comfort you,
and help your hope pull through.

Let me put your smile back,
and give you the happiness that you lack.
Let me share my broken heart
Like how i wanted to from the start.

Stay with me till the morning sun rise,
I’ll stay with you till your tears dries.
Throw your regrets to the sky,
Give them your last goodbye.

Let them burn in the light of the sun,
It’s the best thing that needs to be done.
I want you to be happy, I need you to be happy..
Even if i have to risk my life, i will gladly.

Even if the stars fall or collide,
I would always stay by your side.
Though the land collapse and the seas subside,
I will still love you even after time had died.