Divergent Chaos

I am now a lone drifter..drifting through the endless unknown.

I cannot move..I cannot control my direction..i only drift through the waters of my emotions…destination is unknown.

The Hate had subsided..waiting for another trigger. From what whas Love that became Hate and inturn became Nothingness, just an endless blackhole consuming all emotions and all life.

I need someone to tow me into their world so that i may stop drifting.

I’m tired of looking at distant stars and wishing that i could touch them even though that i am aware that i would be burned if i do.

It feels like i have lost everything.

My dreams, hopes and the fuzzy feeling deep inside of me.

Being betrayed by someone you loved so deeply is the worst feeling you could ever have.

Letting you go and leaving you alone with broken promises and shattered hopes feels like eating aluminum wrapper.

Im at the edge of reason..i want to forget but how can i forget when our memories run in an endless cycle that seems not to stop. Sleep proves to be my only escape from a reality that i cannot and refuse to accept. The pain is overwhelming, like a cancerous tumor on the center of your brain. Trying to take it out will prove to be lethal but letting it only sit there is like having a timer on your life.

You try to ignore it but you are still aware..