Divergent Chaos

Dear Khristine.

Good day to you and i hope that you are happy with your life..a life without my presence.
I did not wish for anything this sad to happen between us. I have said so many times that i have loved you more than anyone in my life, i never wanted to take away your dreams or make you sad..
I once promised you that i would give everything that i had to you, and try to provide you with the things that you wanted.
I thought you would never give up on our long awaited relationship..but you did..and you caused the greatest sadness in me.
Everyday and everynight, your thoughts and our memories of the past are the only things that occupy my mind. I cant help but wonder if i could have done anything to prevent that break-up..i realized that it was what you wanted.

I dont care if you are noth the one for me or i’m not the one for you..All i wanted was to hold you in my arms again and give you everything except my soul. Your contentment is the only heaven i will know..
If time could erase the past, then so be it..If my mind can forget about you, my heart would never..
Your love was the only thing that made me feel complete..and to live without it is more tragic than death..

No matter how much the pain i must endure, i will keep this flame from forever burning, until everything fades and until this universe comes to the state of oblivion..my arms and my heart will remain open.

Sincerely Yours,
Z_Chaos

For a love that brings suffering , pain turns to anger, anger turns to hate, hate creates destruction..until nothing is left.

I once feared that a day would come when everything that i’ve ever love in my life disappears in front of me..that day came yesterday.

Today, i dont exist anymore.

Loving someone is the desire to be close to a person who fills the incompleteness  in your soul. Within their embrace is the heaven that you have been searching for your whole life. Their kiss gives ou the blessings of hope that you seek for the fulfillment of your happiness.

Valentines day is just a few days away..but i’m still trapped in the endless maze of sadness..

I wanted her back but she doesn’t want to comeback..yet..

I cant move on and i cant turn back time..I’m stuck in this world of daydream and paranoia.