Divergent Chaos

I’m starting to like this girl…

The first time i’ve saw her, i said to myself "It’s a new phase in my life, I’ve got to let go of the past and create a new future".

She became my sole reason for the new chapter of this life of mine.

If she only knew..

It was just curiosity at first, but it later became an obsession.

It had again begun..

This seething feeling starts to squeeze my heart again and choking me to death…

If she only knew what i feel despite the silence that exists between our distant worlds.

I just wanted to let her know that i exist.

I am here waiting..again.

Again, i succomb to this fragile feeling, leaving my defenses down.

Someone once again tries to be a part of my life and my self.

I tried to resist but i found that it was futile.

If this was meant to be, then i shall let it be.

No more hindrance, no more restrictions, no more apathy.

It is a new day.

A new day for contemplation and misery.

Life always seems to be incomplete, no matter how hard you try to fulfill it.

Death.

Death offers the absolute redemption to any lost cause.

Love.

The pointed sword that pierces through any heart, no matter how hard or cold.

Hate.

Is the only absolute feeling besides Love, unbiased and uncontrollable.

Humanity.

Is but the mortal existence of lost souls trying to find reason for their being when there is absolutely none..

Lives lived in insanity and uncertainty, misjudgment and temperance.

I.

Nothing but a speck of dust, insignificant compared to the infinity of the universe.

Chaos.

Is infinite and constant.